What 2008 brings..

Well, hhow excited am I to be blogging on 2008.  I first make a commitment with myself that I will blog at least once a month here on Zaadz.  I want to continue supporting the expansion of this amazing website filled with people who continue to inspire and teach me.  This is a retreat for me - Thank you to all those who make it possible.

2008 has come in and with it, fresh air.  I am not entirely comfortable with all of the changes at work but I do realize that these changes are continuing to expand my awareness of who and what I am.  Some of the changes are easier than others of course as is always the case.  I am working on just Being with the changes.  I recently read that my Enneagram personality is such that I tend to be comfortable and in many ways welcome the idea that in all parts of life and in all situations I can see Divine Order working through them.  I can see a war and realize that it is bringing us to a greater awareness of God.  I can see that the war is asking for us to understand ourselves more.  It is not like I do not act against war, it is that I can see that the fact I act against the war is the good that comes from that war.  And my growth and the deepening of our race consciousness is the good at the heart of the situation.  But anyway, what the enneagram also told me was that I sometimes could not allow myself to understand that my emotions and what I feel, especially those judged "bad feelings" were all part of the Divine Order also.  So I am taking the decision to committ to allowing myself to BE with my anxiety, BE with my discomfort, BE with my hurt, etc.  I want to allow myself to Be with them but not OF them.

I also think I feel like new waters are here again.  I recently met someone who is continuing to impress me.  Not so much with all of the wonderful things he does (which are many) but he impresses me with his ability to make me think of him, smile at the thought of him, make me feel happy.  After two years of not seriously dating someone, the opportunity to have that once again is really inspiring me to bring more of who I am, my true nature, to full expression.  If I can manifest this relationship into my life - how powerful am I!  I am powerful enough to bring more health, more love, deeper relationships, more fulfilling situations all into my life.  Not for his sake, not for the sake of others but for the sake of ME.

I have always strived to be a grateful person.  I have always felt I thank God and Divine Spirit for as much as a I can.  Truly, I say to you Divine Mother Father God that I am grateful for this and all my experiences.  Thank you for 2007 and all the inner work, both conscious and unconscious, that came through me for me as me.  I thank you for 2008 for all of what is to come and what already IS.  I thank you for your continued support and love being expressed in so many different ways.  I sit here today knowing your beauty and allowing myself to see that beauty in all that I do.

What does 2008 bring into my life?  All God.  There is no other power, there is no other force.  Whatever ways it choses and I allow it to by which express, it is only God and therefore only good and therefore only joy.  Yay!